It was a hell miserable day yesterday. I had a long stretch of ominous from morning all the way till 3:30pm.
Firstly, in the morning when i went to the toilet for a shower. The moment i took down the shower head, the whole shower head stand came falling down. so i got it fixed and continued to shower. Then when i need to make up, i took out the blusher and things came falling apart. I was so angry. I did not bother it but continued to left my house for work.
I took my break at 2:30pm because i need to attend to an interview. Before that the whole morning was in a very good sunny weather. But as soon as the time hit 2:30pm dark cloud began to appeared in the sky. The moment I stepped out of the office, loud thunder strike and rain started to fall, as i walked towards the bus stop. As I was walking out of the office, I have this feeling in my head "can I don go, so don feel like going for the interview".
So anyway I took the bus and alighted 2 stop later. I actually got lost and went to the wrong centre. I don know why, but the feeling when i reached there was weird.
So i reached there like 15mins early for the interview. Filled up the form and waited for the "BOSS". She scheduled the interview at 3pm  but I have to wait for her it 3:20pm. don she know that my time as also precious.. was so angry. Finally "the BOSS" came out. the moment i saw her face i was like " can i just leave this place". the whole interview she was just finding fault in me. Not a moment she will smiled, kept on putting up that "I AM THE BOSS,U BETTER LISTEN TO ME, ONLY WHAT I SAID IS CORRECT" kinda of attitude. I applied for an asst. post so is just to help out the main in charge. But she say she was taken aback  by the fact that I will only work for a month and then not return there to work again.
I feel that there is a problem with her mindset and thinking. What i feel was that the message that she wanted to say was correct only when I was applying to be the main in charge, BUT HELLO, I was just applying to be the Asst. Please get your information correct. Then she look at my age, saying that I am so young so no experience la, I mentioned I have worked for almost 2 full time year. and she was like okay so as assistant also. I damn frustrated and say "no, i was the main in charge".
I really hated people saying u so young no experience one la hence i cant pay you so much. then the pay was way below the market price. Hence which is y I work before going back for my further studies. Okay back to the complaint. It was the most angry interview i ever went to. The moment she say end the interview, I just stood up don even want to look at her and just left the place. Argghghhh...So angry
Such a long wordy post, feel better pouring it out..

Be yourself, live your dreams, go after what you want. There are only so many chances. If you want it, go get it.

Never quit! It gives those who stand with you too much pain and those who stand against you too much satisfaction. 

Two pretty nice songs that I enjoy (:

 Pretty place that I wish to go

 Truly understood how it felt on one of the midnight three years ago...May u be blessed always :)

It the beginning of a new month- NOVEMBER (:

And 58 more days to 2012.

I have been going jogging and swimming for the past week. Wanna work on my body shape and tanning. I have also been cautious on my diet cause I think that I have a fat butt.. hahaha I really wanna go on a holiday get away. The place i wish to go is MALDIVES <3 I just love that place even thou I have never been there before. Cause I saw it in the Korean F4 idol drama, the place is definitely awesome !!




ohh mine the place is just so beautiful..


This Presidential Suite is cool..


Omg the view from the bathroom

IThinkIcanOnlyGoInMyDream...

Gotten reply from MFS but it is only for relief teaching, better than nothing. Went down for work on Monday, the whole center changed, including the staffs. But it was quite alright working there, as it is quite near my house just 2 junction away. Still waiting for other job to call me, hope it come by faster.

The problem I find about myself is that sometime when things get a little over due or I am too restless and some other came sweet talking to me, I will just give in. And most of the time, it was a wrong decision made and I often regretted it. I know it is wrong or even not suitable but I did it just to get done with it. Someone save me!

AniceSongBy李玖哲-別說 

KambatehFeline<3

Send job application to MFS & a data entry post. Hope to receive a reply by the end of this week. Too slack already.

Watched The smurfs, Johnny English, FD5, Fright night and Real steel. what more to watch.?

Went to seng kang yesterday to see the development of the HDB apartment. Cant find which is his apartment. I wrote down the address before but I forgotten where I left the slip of paper. But the housing there mostly are only 30% up, there are still more to be complete. OMG. I have to wait until when? next year May will be 2 years up le. Terrible..

LuvMyself

It's F.R.I.D.A.Y and it's CHILDREN"S DAY :)

爱虽然很美妙 却不能为了寂寞 又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到对的人出现
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照

I have been feeling a little restless lately. My job application have got not reply at all.

When Nothing goes right, go LEFT

"TheBestWayToPredictTheFutureIsToCreateIt"

Yeapi, finally all done with the assignments and the major business plan presentation. I think we have done really well in this business presentation. I have never been so prepare for a presentation. Have what I wanted to say in mind and did alot of eye contact with the panel. Great job people !

It's the start of my 3 months vacation till Jan'12. Hope to find a job real soon. Still waiting for Eton House to reply me. pls.

Went to watch Real Steel gala preview yesterday @ The cathay. Quite a nice show :) Max is super duper cute and handsome. He dance really well <3

 we cant recover tracks it's too late
this pain is great and hard to hide.
yet through all the memories, i'll say goodbye

I was so sure of myself i left it all behind

I was so sure i let it go

so what are you still doing in my mind?

It does not matter how much I try, I am juz too tired of it ..

My friend ask me something today "have you totally get over it?" and I said, it had been so long, the feeling just go neutral already.. yeap true the feeling has faded and I am not so interested in hearing the news any more. But occasionally I will still think about it, because it was once I put in true feeling to it. But life still have to go on no matter what  ..


Went to watch FRIGHT NIGHT yesterday at The Cathay. The show was quite alrite, a bit of comedy and horror vampire storyline..I also drank my first gong cha yesterday. It was not bad, the tea was quite nice as compared to the sweet talk.

Have to finish my 2000 words essay on IT assignment by today, I hope. Then there is a presentation tml to prepare.

Recently I was watching the old idol drama "Meteor garden". I think this was the first idol drama that I watched. It was still very interesting and refreshing for my memory after I had watched it before. I like DMS and SC. What a lovely couple they are :)

And pls grant me the job, I would want the one at newton :)

现在窗外面又开始下着雨

眼睛干干的有想哭的心情

不知道你现在到底在哪里

太多的情绪没适当的表情

最想说的话我(应)该从何说起

你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你

没有过去

我不会有伤心

Went shopping at H&M yesterday. It was full with lots of shoppers. By the time we came out of the shop, there was a long Q waiting to enter the store. It was ridiculous, ppl nid to Q and wait for their turn to enter a store. OMG.. Then I brought myself a Charles and keith open toe gladiator. Not really feel like shopping, I get tired of walking and feel sleepy. hahah

I was just wondering ever since he moved in here, what has he been doing?? Does he meet up with his friends? meet up with the third uncle or just siting in the library? o wad else?? there seem like nth he could do except going out doing nth everyday and going for holiday... No one seem to bother him. Does he feel sad? Almost everyone that are close to him, left him. And his money is depleting.. I think if he move out when he had his key, it will be even worst. I don think any one will be visiting him.

:(

It's rather tired, stoning and irritated these days. Sometimes when I don say anything about it, does not mean that I agree to the matter. I find it pointless in talking about it. Relationship got distant, mainly because there is nothing to talk about. The trust is no longer there.

When can I start to count down for the 4 years. It is just getting on my nerve. How I wish someone was right there with me. I don wana to be alone.

Had my teacher's day celebration at the JBP. It was also for the purpose of the field studies assigment. This was my first time there, the penguin was real cute.. haha other then that it was not reali worth the money to go to the BP for a visit.


When working on sat, the supervisor gave me a cake and say that it's for the tr's day celebration.  The cake was rather disappointing as there was alrdy a layer of oil seen between the cream and the sponge. 


When for a little shopping trip that day but was unable to buy any thing. The shopping spree feeling was not there. There is lye nth to be buy in spore. How I wish I was in boston again to do my shopping, it was much more fun and happening.

Always looking forward to new things and nvr look back to, since it is alrdy the past. You cant bring back the past, it can only stay as a memory..










"If it's really meant for you, you shouldn't be hurting in the first place." 

Watched  FD5 3D, it was awesome scary scenes as well as funny acts.

Getting to be quite busy for the next week till October'11. Assignments are starting to come in, more and more. The due date for the assignments are rather close. On the other hand, I have to go to work in the aftnn till night for every Monday, some Thursday and also Saturday. Hence, have to complete my work in between those classes.

It is getting difficult for me to have trust in people nowadays after what had happened in these few years of my life.

 I want my security back :(

Finding a new chapter into my life :) soon...

幸福　不是每一天都有
错过以后要等很久很久
别让你的快乐在我怀中变成泡沫
至少　我们依然是朋友
如果我不适合握你的手
带着我的祝福好好的过
走累了 IF YOU DON'T MIND 和我坐下来　看看天的蓝
你永远不会孤单有个人　只为了你存在

Ulcer. Sore throat.Running nose.Muscle ache.Fever.

popped pills. 

Hope I be fine by tonite 

:)FD5

也许时间给的太少 没有珍惜你的好
城市太喧闹 你没有听到
我不该把手放掉没有了你 没有爱情
什么都已经是空气
这些没有你的日子 没有了自己
没有了你 没有力气
孤单香水却来袭我想念你身上气味
请给我 相互拥抱的机会
你离开后我才明了 幸福已经溜掉
你也许都不会知道

爱情如果都是微笑 那多美好
天亮的太早 在偷一秒
想你的笑 想听你吵
才发现思念发酵

I am going CRAZY !!

Today lect was on Entrepreneurship module, I thought it would be those boring lecturing class however the lecturer was quite interesting and telling us lots of  business stories and getting to know the net worth of the riches men on earth, haha.

During class, my frn asked me if I wanted to go for lunch ltr and she wants to go to that particular food court. I hesitate for awhile, unwilling to answer her question and hoping if she could change her mind, bt she didn't.
I don reali want to go there, it just brings back all the memories again.

Juggling among two jobs, studies, assignments, relationship and other personal commitment is just too tiring.

I need a break...



Remember everything like it was yesterday,
I know that we had a really great time.
Although it is all over, I'm glad that I can say
I had the chance to know you well,
I have to write this rime to remind myself,
sometimes how it used to be,
how great it was together,
you and me :)

It's hard to say goodbye to the place you've lived all your life.
It can be as hard as trying to say goodbye to a person.

Maybe not everything is meant to last forever...

How i wish i could fly over the clouds again, living with a couple of my good frns and things were just the same as before and sweet :)








Sitting here alone thinking it through, trying to convince myself that I have get over it. 

Just noticed yesterday that I had alot of sand fly bits on both my legs. Lots of small red spots in an area.Eeeeee. Put lots of itch cream, hope it does not leave behind any scars.

It is just too difficult for me to have trust in someone. Not when someone who is real close related to you have chosen to betray and bring all faults to you, making the world thinks that you are the bad person on earth.

I have chosen to ignore the person but I still have to respect the person when needed to.

Hence it makes me wonder " what I look like through other peoples eyes."  As sometimes I may be seem not as what I am.

I may regret the way we ended, but I'll never regret what we had.






“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.”
I just wanna be where you are.

“Just because something doesn’t last forever it doesn’t mean it wasn’t meaningful while it did last.”

The same opportunity never knocks twice. The next one may be will be better or, but it is never the same one.

                                    
Someone out there is waiting to love you the way you wanted to be loved for so long.

I miss you like a rose misses the sun in the depths of winter.

 This is easy say then done. It is what my mouth said and not my heart.

That was what I always did, even thought it was way off my sleeping time, my assignments due dates and my preparation for the test.. and even so when I was aboard..

你就是我的旅途都是因为你 我一直漫步
想要跟你一起走到最后但我遗失了地图
爱到深处才会领悟好的事情 最后虽然结束

谢谢你,是你陪我走过那些路.痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情 也许能够重复至少你和我记得很清楚
爱 是为彼此祝福

休息是为了走更长的路

Alot of things had happened this year.. I have already been in the second year of  my Bac of Sci course. I just came back to Sg a week before after my studies trip in Boston, MA. Did had a lot of fun but trouble spells as well in that whole months. This trip really changes alot of things and allows me to view things very differently.
Me and my Uni friends had known each other for the past one years and three months. The relationship in this click have changes alot.
After a long thinking and analyzes, I have decided to let it go. Have ended the six months relationship. it was very painful but life still have to go on...

Mar. 25th, 2011

• 1:08 AM

Omg it's such a long duration after my last entry.
been in sch for reali intensive course training.
have got use to the system and late nite.. quite hetic..
gt to noe tis guy a few mths bk..
been tokin on phone, bt not sure of the feeli and the relationship towards him..
feeling stress, confusion and agitated by alot of things evolve ard my life this whole stretch of year..
i need a confirm to this feelin, so that i will b better..
i  will try nt to tk this seriously..
coz veri time matter gt worst if i view it seriously..
so jus let fate decide.
i know it's stupid .............

• Mood:  depressed

IT"S JULY 2010 NOW !!

• Jul. 9th, 2010 at 10:28 PM

time really goes by so fast
I'm alrdy in the Bsc Degree Prog
is into the week 3 of the course
i did ask myself " is it the correct for me to return to study, why am i suffering in heRE"
the encouragment from my parents
and the though frm  my kid parent
proved to me that i shld cont in AND STRIVE IN THIS Bse Prog
i hv meet a very good teammate in this course
we hv fun, seriourness, teamwork, laughter
i enjoy it. thank gals
it goanna get tougher
juz hang it on
reaali miss my kids and my close colledgue in there
hope to go bk there and see them
JIA YOU FELINE<3

interesting fun course

• Nov. 7th, 2009 at 6:26 PM

when i got to noe tt i nid to attend the 1st aid course
i was lye wat the hell so tired
so tey put me for 3 days intensive course
so i went tere
but hey it was fun and interesting, nt boring
the lesson and the instructors were veri fun
the 3 guys Nafiz, jaduary and juztin
hving a fun time and it end quite fast
sooo gd

btw
the ref letter wrote alrdy
tt part done
thank alot to both my referencer
thank you for your wonderful help
now i hv essay and resume to complete
i reali want the course to accept me and wana go bk to study ASAP
i miss my skoo life
haha

• Location:niceMoodtoday

~"~ My love will get you home~"~

• Nov. 4th, 2009 at 9:07 PM

I  lye this song v. much, v touching
every time I listen to this songs,
it remind me of the touching scenes
in the hong kong drama 香港TVB剧热播的《溏心风暴》
by Christine Glass 

If you wander off too far
如果你游离太远
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If you follow the wrong star
如果你追随了错误的星星
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself
如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone
迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me
回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy
我的爱将带你回家,男孩 My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If the bright lights blinds your eyes 如果太炫目的光芒灼伤你的眼睛
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If your troubles break your stride
如果困难阻断你前进的步伐
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself
如果你曾发现自己 Lost and all alone
迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy
我的爱将带你回家,男孩
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If you ever feel ashame
如果你曾感觉困窘
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If its only you to blame 如果你被责怪
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself
如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone
迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me
回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy
我的爱将带你回家,男孩 My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself
如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone
迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me
回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy
我的爱将带你回家,男孩
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家
My love will get you home Boy
我的爱将带你回家,男孩
My love will get you home
我的爱将带你回家

• Location:where the music are

so fast

• Nov. 4th, 2009 at 6:58 PM

Time reali pass by veri fast..
on the last entry i was still at the previous co. just starting for ard 2 mth
now i hv been in the last co. for 9 mths and hv left tere..
i found a new job in the new co.
a much more bigger organissation than the pre co.
n much more tougher..
more demanding stuff to do..
cum to tinkof tt the compare the 2 co.
the pre co is much better compare with the env,
the staffs, the chn, the relationship  bt the only bad tink is the damn loww paid
tt is only the tink t is not gd
so i hv to perserve in tere in my present co.
hv been in here for gg to 2 mths alrdy ..
Wow tt's real fast ..
so now getting ready for the Uni application
and wait for dec to sent in and then jan 2010 to receive my result
so i will still hv to work till ard may 2010 ..
so hv to be stronger .. hang on tere
i hv my family to support me in tere..
for the Uni course fee so i hv to hang on
for the trip to boston and many other things..
JUST HANG ON IN THERE
everything will be fine ..
BELIEVE IN MYSELF
LUV FELINE ....

• Location:my cozy little room

HELLO>>>

• Jul. 10th, 2009 at 8:25 PM

It has been a long long time since my last post.
have been working there for ard 4 mths plus gg to 5.
okay.. quite all rite wit it ,, got used to it already ..
so started to fine another new job .. lol
coz the paid is damn hell tooooo little
how to survive...
so sent alot of email to apply for a lot of diff jobss.
so to have some good reply ..

i tink of seeing him today ..
and ya i saw him... at the traffic light there haha..
happy
i alway see him at the bustop, but i don noe if her noticess me ant..
so that day.i was already at the bustop.. and his bus came... he was running toward the bus.
and i loked at him and he looked back ..
haha so cute la him ...
so the next day i saw him again.  i jus look at him from the corner of my eye ...
then today morni i was thinkin can i c him again ... ahhaa i saw him .
i was at the traffic light
then he was on my right side.. i saw it ...
den i jus cross the road.. he was behind me walking ..
i try to walk veri slowly .. den i reached the bstop
my frn was there so i went up to her..
i turn and i saw him , he went to sit down at the seat there.
aft a while his bus came and he went up .. i was looking at him when talkin to my frnz
jus miss him ... haha
crazy galz  ... heee hahha lol ...
HAPPY DAY>>>>

• Mood:  crazy

Mar. 6th, 2009

• 5:38 PM

today is friday.. it a happy day..
gg on to sat.. i would want to change a new spec frame on sun..
not a bad day today..
quite busy and enjoyable day ..
was busy with my class den when over to another for relief..
den back to prepare for my next class den off for lunch ..
meet the chinese teacher at the eating place ,
ate and talk together..
den after that went back to the next class ..
help to file  up all the document..
time run very fast .. off to end work
den came back home ..'

have not receive the paid yt for the job
better give me tml..
broke alrdy ..
lol ..
till here den tata +)

Mar. 1st, 2009

• 10:46 AM

It has already been a week at the new work place..
i think getting used to it already..
so fast a week has pass..
everythink is getting fine there.. which i think soo..
misses the others..
getting down to job now..

• Location:musicy

Feb. 25th, 2009

• 6:09 PM

Tis is the first entry of 2009 .
okies a new beginning of the year in the post.
lols.. i finally found myself a job.
have nt quit the previous yt. still doing part itme on it.
so now i hv got 2 job to handle..
both are in the same field.. in the area that i am confidence in..
so jus started tis wk ..
just trying out first..
willl offically start nxt wk..
so today damn laggy..
break at 1.30 to 2.30
den wk till 3pm
break again.. inside the office research on the stuffs..
read magzden till 5 break off gg home..
a bits siaz and cold toda.. had a heavy lunch .
staff alll quite nice happy working togather..
oki tt all for today..]
off to play my online games... lol    tata

• Location:Inarelaxmind

Oct. 24th, 2008

• 4:32 PM

A lot of things has happen during tis six mths ,,
there are alot to say ,, bt i jus don noe wat to say or how to say abt it..
it be tough for me and my family..
i just want a change in my career ,,
want a full time job with cpf..
bt i juz couldn't gt one of my own ..
felt so useless..most of my application were nt successful ..
bt i hope tis one would change my life ..
tis gona make a change in me and my family.
there's  nth much to say ..
jusz hope things will go smoothly fro nw on ..
gt the job tt i want and start earning for my future ,.
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